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doitallright @ 2008-07-20T15:18:00

2008-07-20T21:19:23Z

sophie (my dog) died yesterday of a heart attack
my dad is really upset
she was a good dog

doitallright @ 2008-02-29T22:09:00

2008-03-01T05:12:01Z

BUY MY ART
i'll draw / paint you whatever you want. just name what you want and your price and i will do it for you really quick.
and tell other people too please. you guys know my RT

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2008-01-26T06:09:35Z

His bed is up against the wall. We sit on the back edge like it's a stoop and both our hair is pushed into the windowpane, but my breath is the only breath on it. He has faced the bedroom door with his hands clasped into a fly-trap, white-knuckled, tightly. Yawn. Doze off. The cold is numbing both our brains.
Put your hands into your pockets when you wake up. It is a late 3:00 type sleep done sitting up on a dark day. Peanut butter sandwiches for lunch, again.

Don Eddy is a favorite artist. His painting theory was in seeing glass. He would paint the reflection you see, the glass itself, and the image through the glass as if you were seeing it all at once. Try it sometime.

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2008-01-18T03:29:25Z

staying home
doing homework
playing super smash bros.

good dayss

doitallright @ 2007-12-27T22:28:00

2007-12-28T05:43:57Z

My favorite shoe brand is:
ASICS and onitsuka tiger

If I had a magic wand that could grant three wishes, I would wish:
1. for one day every week to be 60-70 degrees all day
2. to find manuel's phone number
3. for DEATH FROM ABOVE 1979 to get back together

The biggest hoax ever was:
NOT THE MOON LANDING, because i believe in it 120%
probably 'joe millionaire'
it was a twist no one saw coming

My #1 animal:
le wolf

The movie I have to see:
PERSEPOLIS

I never expected:
that I would grow to love 'contemporary art' so much and
that that painting "American Gothic" would be so... bleh.

Top two things that make me who I am today:
1. neopets
2. damn, neopets

doitallright @ 2007-12-25T23:09:00

2007-12-26T06:14:47Z

ha HA

damn
every time i say to myself,
"don't get too cocky nix" "it's just what they think, nix" "don't think you're better than that nix"
i always end up thinking i'm better than that.
well why not.

doitallright @ 2007-12-21T21:24:00

2007-12-22T04:42:46Z

mmmmmmm
chicago was... very good
a couple more days and i'll be back home
i got a good thing going now though, it's gonna pay off

how bout we get together soon?

doitallright @ 2007-12-15T21:14:00

2007-12-16T04:21:34Z

maybe i'll

start spelling my name 'cera' instead of 'sarah' like 'chez' does, instead of 'shea'.

go to a different school, get a new circle of friends

get my art on walls instead of on canvases

live according to music

get new clothes

learn to skate

start all over

become something i can be proud of

doitallright @ 2007-12-07T23:09:00

2007-12-08T06:12:43Z

WOW REALLY

BOW BOW BOW BOW BOW
WE DON'T MOVE
I KNOW YOU NEED IT
HEY
I NEED IT TOO
WELL ALRIGHT
I KNOW YOU NEED IT
IT'S GOOD FOR YOU

doitallright @ 2007-12-03T21:11:00

2007-12-04T04:44:59Z

Some rules all from experience

1. If you don't know the whole story, don't spread what you do know because it might be wrong.
2. Seating on the bus: A mid-section seat facing forward is preferable. Sit in the back only if you know someone there because it tends to be louder. You may have to move if you sit in the front.
3. Try not to start sentences with "I think".
4. If you weren't invited, it's probably because they're all tripping and it's not your thing.
5. Never overtly assume that anyone is bad.
6. If you don't understand a word someone is using, say so.
7. If you don't want to get angry, don't talk about race, religion, gender, social problems, economic problems, or political opinions.
8. When you try, try hard.
9. Nobody has to agree with you. But be open to opinions.
10. Pockets are good places for your hands when they have nothing else to do.
11. Sometimes you just have to do what makes you feel right. The people who tell you otherwise never 100% follow their own judgements.
12. Money is made of paper.
13. There is always something better.
14. There are times when you are all that you have got. Learn to count on yourself.
15. Arguing over music taste doesn't lead anywhere.
16. You can make new friends.
17. Be vague.

doitallright @ 2007-11-23T00:33:00

2007-11-23T07:34:16Z

i just want opie
that is all
stop being mad
tonight never happened

we are your friends

2007-11-06T01:37:08Z

i guess i've come to terms with being alone now. i am alone a lot of the time, if i don't involve myself. if i was sitting alone you still wouldn't come sit by me, but the difference is that now i wouldn't need you to sit by me. that makes me very sad, wolves and cats, ponies and doggies, rabbits and foxes and raccoons and zebras of my world. (betcha never heard those ones before.)
i may never be attached to anyone if they don't equally love me back.
speaking of wolves, wolves wolves wolves.

does make me very happy happier than i've been.
YOU'LL
NEVER BE ALONE AGAIN
i did read a fable, the moral was "sometimes, love is its own reward."
it was about an ostrich, he fell in love, and every day he did something new for his beloved. one day he bought flowers for her, but he was too shy to give them too her. one day he wrote a poem to her, but he was too shy to read it. at the end of the week she still didn't know he existed, but he was happy anyway. sometimes love is its own reward.
i am happily exhausted as well. not just due to wolves.

music moves me to tears. it is my keystone.

AGHHGGH

2007-10-29T01:12:54Z

"All I want to type is 'osprey' OH MY GOD" - quote

i am that exactly that frustureated
i can't even typ e even opsery?
like the things where your swords (w ords) are the same like if both front and back are in the right palce, but no that's like you if your head whas up above and your freet are down below and your lungs are below your kness and your intenstine is above your brains.

damnit won't even talk to me unless i'm talking about something real...

my brain really is below my intestinesS (f you get my drift)

doitallright @ 2007-10-13T19:06:00

2007-10-14T01:16:34Z

It used to make me so fed up People always asking me, "What will you be when you grow up? You're gonna need security" Spent a little time in school Wishing I was somewhere else Having fun and acting cool I just want to be myself	And I finally found a home! Where I'll never be alone Right here, where I belong And I finally found a home Here, in a song
Thought I'd finally found the one Together we would always be Funny how things come undone Love's not what its supposed to be Now everybody needs a place Even if it's on a stage Eveybody needs a race Something to help them turn the page	And I finally found a home Where I'll never be alone Right here, where I belong And I finally found a home- Here, in a song
It used to make me so fed up People always asking me What are you now that you've grown up Exactly what I want to be

I hate days when I don't feel like myself cuz I'm stuck with not feeling like myself. Then there's nothing you can do to stop it. My eyes hurt and I need to close them.

photoshoot

2007-10-06T23:37:46Z

shoot tomorrow
my house
come b/n 1 - 2
leave b/n 6 - 7
don't be afraid to walk or get yr shoes wet

doitallright @ 2007-10-01T15:49:00

2007-10-01T21:57:15Z

Bad shit guyz. I'm kinda depressed.
I got nothing to talk about today other than what a blitch Mr blitch is. Pretty much everyone in that class too. All "i know so much more than u." wtf is that about.

so then they drilled a hole in my head and all my respect for them leaked out.

2007-09-11T23:20:05Z

So today took a total 180 from yesterday.
What's up nix?
FUCKING ADMIN THAT'S WHAT'S UP.

So here's the scoop: freshmen meeting today in the morning, new principal and the nurse and mr. shaw and some other people there. basically told us-
1. NO off campus priveleges. we are not being punished for last year's class, it is a SAFETY issue.
2. there may be NO free periods next semester because school is a place you come to learn, yadda yadda yadda.
3. NO freshmen initiation. "wtf is freshmen initiation? i've never heard of this 'freshmen initiation'." FRESHMEN INITIATION ISWILL</i> GET YOU EXPELLED yadda yadda yadda.
4. some things about fire drills, etc.

i don't know what you guys discussed at the sophmore meeting this afternoon.
well I HAD A MENTAL BREAKDOWN after this meeting. crying, shaking, the whole nine yards. sophie you saw me crying right there, well this was worse. they took me to the vice principal's office.
now this may not make a lot of sense to you. "nix for god's sake WHY are you getting so frusturated?" well i will TELL you why.

I WORKED MY FUCKING ASS OFF FOR NOTHING. I'M TALKING TO YOU SOPHMORES, JUNIORS, MY FRIENDS. EVERY YEAR I HAVE BEEN ONE YEAR BEHIND AND THIS YEAR IS JUST THE SAME.
i can't go off campus, i won't have a free period, i won't even experience the initiation which i was EXPECTING this year. that i was WAITING for this year? do you know why?
SCHOOL IS A PLACE FOR LEARNING, YOUR SAFETY IS OUR CONCERN, BLAH BLAH BLAH.

okay, i can handle this. i can handle JUST this. but when i went into that office today and sat down and talked to these admin (first the vice principal, then the psycology person,) do you know what i got?
"YOU MAY NOT UNDERSTAND THIS BUT"
"THIS IS FOR YOUR OWN GOOD"
"WE ARE PEOPLE TOO"
"honestly, freshmen are still not as emotionally/socially developed as sophmores, you're still middle school students"
"make some new friends in your grade"
"YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE FRIENDS WHO CAN DRIVE ANYWAY"
the moment i said "suicide" (referring to the fact that i wanted to kill myself because i felt isolated) the vice principal sent me over to the counseling office, and the counseler told me i had to get friends my age. ????????????????????????????
yeah, to be fair, i was a nervous wreck. i probably freaked them all out, i'm putting myself in harm's way in THEIR hands. (: oops.

but now. you all know me, right? huh? you know i can fucking take care of myself. i am responsible. i have followed the rules. i am an excellent student. i've never vandalised property, i don't smoke, i'm not violent...
V-P told me specifically today that it is a number of reasons why we aren't being allowed off. there is us being punished for the stuff last year (she said it isn't 'punishment' but you get my drift), 'safety concerns' being pushed by the district, parents, and the 'temptation' to ditch. these are ALL valid reasons. i understand WHY. now what can i do to change it? will it change?
- NO
"if it was up to us" NO highschool anywhere would have off-campus priveleges. apparently GW has already restricted it for freshmen.
guys, i'm just warning you now, WE CAN NOT CHANGE THEIR MINDS. they have no REAL RESPECT for me. they have no REAL RESPECT for you. that's brash to say. but i can tell, by the way i was treated and what i was told, and the way all of us were treated at that meeting- by the time we are treated as equals, and i'm talking ANYWHERE, not just in this school, hell will have frozen over.

we submitted a petition to student council who i heard submitted it to the admins. the principal said she had never seen it.
we can 'rise up' in protest, and i'll be happy to join, but ultimately, her judgement will always be better than ours.
we can stay on campus, not letting 10 of us go off, we can... but will it be any different. in her words, "and WHEN that happens, sophmores WILL be restricted next year."
and this business of "school is school not socializing time?" are you serious? bull. shit.

IF YOU'RE STILL THINKING "why are you making such a big deal about this"
you sit on the lawn and watch your best friends leave every day for a whole year. you try to feel like "part of the group" as you wait for them and watch them come back. you be honestly OVERJOYED when they decide to stay with you and THANK them for it, not EXPECTING it but GRATEFUL for it. you take the only 45 minutes of free time you all share, and spend it apart from the people you love the most, just because you'll 'get in trouble' if you go with them. you wait a whole year, every day like this, until you can finally come too and they won't leave you behind. and when it finally comes time, you get told you can't, you missed the cut off, and you better make some new friends because one day they'll be gone for good.
maybe i should just SUCK IT UP, huh.

if this year is a shoebox, last year was the atlantic ocean. aren't you just EXCITED about all the new rules and restrictions? after all, it's OUR safety.
this whole thing is honestly a joke. maybe if she had answered some of our questions with more than "not gunna happen, because i said so" or explained it as if we were 15 years old and not 9, maybe i could respect their authority. but seriously. i'm not really feeling the authority right now.

xoxo Nix.

PS - yep i'm just okay thanks for asking. pas mal. i need to talk to some people about specific things- LEAH, KANA, and MAX - so if you could point them in my direction that would be great. tell me what's going down, too.
and btw, if you got through the whole thing i think you deserve a prize.

I LIKE TO FUCK AROUND

2007-09-11T01:53:17Z

"YOU AMERICAN KIDS LIKE TO FUCK AROUND DON'T YOU?"
remember that? huh? good times, right.

preordered the new Go! Team album.

Honestly does not get a whole lot better than this. I LOVE this album. Doesn't sound quite as sample-y as the first one which is something I'll miss. It's a kind of new and less varied sound I think. I have been waiting for this album for a long time, back in May I was wishing there was some more Go! Team for me to listen to.
But seriously, for all of you that have been all gloom n' doom lately this can be your one hell of a wake up call. Put down your indie - punk for one second and check this out.
Full Album on Myspace
Check out #4 (Titanic Vandalism) and #10 (Flashlight Fight).
BUY IT when it comes out on itunes tomorrow.

xoxoxo

hai guzy

2007-09-09T04:26:37Z

NEW LJ FOR REAL THIS TIME
YES SIR
- FOR SURE

this one's pretty cool only because i'll be keeping up with it...
ADD ME IF YOU KNOW ME and PEACE OUT

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